New Year, Not So New Me

So this new year, I made resolutions. But they were a little different. I just wanted to be happy and healthy and appreciate things more.

Something’s I haven’t managed to change. In some ways I’m slowly improving, but the most important thing I know is that this year can be amazing and I’m going to do amazing things and be an amazing person.

I didn’t want to set strict goals because that is completely restricting and demotivating. I don’t see the point in making resolutions when you KNOW you’re going to fail them in the first 3 days. So maybe I’ve eaten 400(ish) chicken nuggets since new year and 3 tubs of Ben and jerrys. But that’s ok because I’m happier and as long as I see myself in the right light it’s ok. I think this year it is about balance. I should have a plan and not have irregular patterns for everything I do but I shouldn’t be so hard on myself.

Also I’d like to get out more. Say yes to more things, but if it’s going to make me extremely anxious, it’s probably not worth it.

I wanted to write this blog far into January because I wanted a clear view of how this year is going to be. So far it’s a little bit foggy and I’m a little unsure. But it’s not scary fog. It’s more like fluffy clouds blocking my vision. But I can always see 1000m into the future (wow that was a bad metaphor I’m gonna go now).

For what it’s worth, it’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you love a life you are proud of. And if you find that you are not, I hope you have the strength to start over.